lights out

I had surgery recently, and to drift into nothingness on anesthesia is truly sublime. In fact, research just released suggests that being under anesthesia is more like a coma than sleep. You don't even notice it coming; the lights go out, then suddenly you're awake again. And I can't remember that I had any dreams while under.

Once we watched as a vet put one of our cats down, and it seemed similarly peaceful. No pain, no struggle, just drifting off.

I can only hope that my own death is as mellow as the gift of anesthesia. A quiet surrender to Nothing.